i’m spending the night at my friend’s house tonight. her name is missy. we’re not best friends, just neighborhood friends, and i spend the night with her because her mom drinks and passes out sometimes, and therefore can’t really enforce a curfew. her bedroom is also on the first floor, and easier to sneak out of than mine is.
missy and i have done some crazy shit together, but on the whole she’s really a much better girl than i am. she’s nice to everyone, she always does her homework, and she gets b’s in school, although she struggles for it because she’s not that bright. boys like her because her tits are pretty big, but she never sleeps around or wears slutty clothes or anything. she doesn’t do drugs or even drink very much, although after hooking up with me, i’ve gotten her to smoke pot a few times, drink some beers, and even drop acid once. but that’s another story.
tonight we are in her room, talking and giggling about this boy that really likes her. his name is martin, and he makes goo-goo eyes at her on the bus all the time. she’s too shy to talk to him up front about it though. so i decided to intervene. martin has this friend named diego who is too old to be in our grade, but nobody knows exactly how old he really is. he’s pretty much a thug on the outside, but if you talk to him for a while he’s very funny. and he’s completely hot, in a thuggish stoner kind of way, with a really, really hard body. i’ve never thought of him in a boyfriend kind of way, because i know he’s trouble. and i’m still a virgin, so i don’t think of him in a sex way either.
martin and diego live in the neighborhood too. this afternoon while missy and i were catching a smoke down at the park, they cruised by on their dirtbikes and stopped to smoke with us. martin and missy got all sheepish around each other, and diego pulled me aside for a minute. he asked me if we could sneak out tonight so that martin could talk to missy alone and maybe even kiss her under the cover of night. i knew she’d be happy, so i said hell yeah. martin is staying at diego’s tonight, so we arranged to all sneak out at midnight and meet in the park.
missy’s nervous, but i’m not. i figure me and diego can talk and smoke while those two do their thing. midnight comes at last. we check out our makeup and missy’s mom, who’s unconscious already, and out the window we go, into the dark stillness of suburbia.
martin and diego are waiting already in the park, and we all smoke and laugh a little at some small talk. then diego asks me if i want to go for a walk, and i say yes. he high-fives martin as i turn my back on them, and i show missy that my fingers are crossed for her. she giggles nervously, and diego and i wander away.
we settle under a really big shade tree, still smoking. diego says that martin is going to try to get lucky with missy. i laugh, because she’s a virgin too, and i know she’s not ready for that yet. diego hopes that martin takes it okay. i’m not sure how it happens, but the conversation turns to what diego and i are going to do to keep ourselves busy. he suggests sex, and for some really stupid reason, i say okay. we undress with our backs to each other, and in the faint glow of the streetlight i see the silhouette of a naked cock for the first time ever. it’s bigger than i’d expected.
i won’t think of it until afterwards, but i think he’s a virgin too. he knows nothing about foreplay, and neither do i. i’ve made out with a couple of guys and gotten all horny, but i guess i don’t really connect it with penetration. so i open my legs and he tries to enter me, and it hurts like hell. it goes most of the way in, but pretty quickly i’m biting my lip and suppressing tears. fortunately he can’t see my face completely because of the darkness. i don’t want him to think i’m a loser. i whisper for him to take it easy, and he apologizes. then he asks if i’ve done it before. i say no, and he pulls back a little and stares at me. he asks if it hurts, and i say a little, but he says it must hurt more than that. then he stands up and gets dressed, and i’m scared he’s mad. but he isn’t. he says he’s impressed with me for giving it a try, and that maybe i’m just not ready yet, which is okay with him. grateful yet disappointed in myself, i dress quickly and we smoke in silence.
after a little while, missy comes flying out of the bushes across the way, with martin on her heels. she is mad, and i catch up with her, leaving diego behind to talk to martin alone. i ask what happened, and she tells me he wanted her to have sex with him, and how could he expect such a thing when they hardly knew each other? and could i believe what a jerk he was? i blink at her, unsure of what to say. from behind me i hear martin raising his voice and using words like ‘cocktease’ and ‘bitch’. diego looks at me quickly, and i wonder if he thinks that’s what i am, a cocktease and a bitch.
we walk back to missy’s house and she climbs in the window. i go to diego and martin, who are standing out on the street because diego insisted it was the right thing to walk ladies home to make sure they get there safely. i pull him aside and ask him if he thinks i am a cocktease. he chuckles, then cups my face in his hands and gives me a long, lingering, lovely kiss, which takes me by surprise. i look at him questioningly, ready to ask again, and he puts his fingers to my lips, shaking his head and smiling. he kisses me once more before martin hollers at him to hurry up.
missy and martin will later wind up dating and breaking up because she still won’t sleep with him, then getting back together, and staying together for a while because she sleeps with him. then they will finally break up because she won’t give him a blowjob. i will be there to comfort her every time he pisses her off, and to listen to her stories when he is romantic.
diego will disappear in a few days, without telling anyone why or where he has gone, and will never be heard from again.
